February already?!

No longer are the high filled spirits on again. But it is still burning a fire in us.
It's already February, pretty fast, I'm not sure if that was a complaint. Maybe because I'm just ready for whatever comes my way. Although, it would be nice to feel like I have nothing to stress on, such as dealing with my internship, March events which I volunteered to be a part of. Kind of stressful, but I'm willing to take it on because I want to be doing something different. If not different, just something I normally wouldn't do on a daily basis. So as a reminder to myself and to whoever is ready this, let's get out there and do something different, in a way I know we would feel positively tired once we hit our sacks.
Keep it real, get it done.

Plastic camera Sunday evening!

So just recently I found a clone of the well known camera, Vivitar PN2011.
What was special about that camera was that it was able to shoot in 2 modes, 1 being regular shots, and the other being panoramic shots. Back then when panoramic cameras were very popular and very expensive, Vivitar came out with an economical alternative to panoramic cameras. Some would refer to it as a "fake panorama" camera just because it wasn't a swing lens system.



The vivitar clone that I found is an Octopus PN 919 S.
Everything about was so similar to the Vivitar PN2011, except for the brand name, and color scheme. I was so psyched about this because finally I saw this camera readily available within my reach, both distribution and price wise. I ordered 5 of them, and one of them I gave it to my friend, an overdue birthday gift. Why did I buy a lot? Some for experiments, and some to sell back at my hometown, Philippines.

I did a test roll when I received the package. I'm just waiting for the scans.
I also just pimped up the Octopus PN 919 S earlier this evening, I modified it to have a "multiple exposure" switch. Which I now call the camera, Octopus Panorampler! Why? Because I can shoot in 3 modes, 1 regular, 1 panoramic, and the last being multi-exposed! Also!! The switch is in a form a "ripcord", just pull the keychain attached to the thread attached to the shutter cocking mechanism thingy, wait for the click, VOILA! You're ready to re-expose your shot!

I'll have lots of fun with my new Octopus Panorampler, and the modification was so much easier than I thought, good thing I decided to kick myself out of lazy ass hour.
Now to test out this baby with the new feature! I'll be putting in a black and white film since there's an ongoing competition for "fake panorama" cameras this month by a local toycam community.

Lomo on! Analog Love forever!

I'm just an intern

Last week I started interning at a local advertising agency here in Jakarta. Out of the 4 days I came to work (yes, i said work, feels good and weird at the same time) I've only received 4 tasks, and enjoyed doing 3. Because the last task I had required me to write in Bahasa Indonesia, and I had a hard time doing that because I was not connected online, therefore not being able to use google translate...shhh! I'm interning as a copywriter, so far it is what I imagined, and i like it because it is a challenge which I know will help me in the future.
Its Monday, I came in quarter to 9am, and there was a handful of employees in the office. I wish I can come at 10am just to get a couple more snoozes, but I won't do that...I'm just an intern.
2nd week of internship! Let's all have a fun monday!

Morning view

i miss mornings like this. wanting to wake up early just to see the sun and look as far as you can. where time is on your side because not everyone has a chance to do this each waking day. sad to leave you.

Did I mention that I am a Lomographer?

my lomographs

I wish I knew

"I love you for who you are and not who you wish you were
My love for you is enough to keep us together
I can't complain of where we are right now
I'm glad you're with me, I don't know what my life would be like if it wasn't for you
You don't have to say anything, words can't explain this feeling
There's nothing about you I'd change, that's why I fell in love with you
Days are clearer knowing you're in my life
I don't want to leave you, that would be insane
I love you"

Looking back on the love I've shared, it was not close to that paragraph.
I'm certain that I've said each of those lines, and I was only being honest. But then, over time they just peel apart and it's hard to put it back into its place.
I thought those words meant what they were, but then thing's just change, and there was no control over it.
It was not in my power to do so because it shouldn't be. Love should not be manipulated, only genuine. I think when love comes, everything should just fall into its place. I'm waiting for that time to come. As much as possible, I don't want it to be moments. I want those moments turned into something that I can have. Not something that I'd look back on and say, that was the time of the relationship where everything just felt so right.
If only it was that easy, right? I guess its the journey we have to embark on to reach a love which is truly shared by two and untouched by another. To find love which makes a man and woman want to be with each other for the rest of their life, and more importantly, they know that it is meant for them.
Happiness is a goal for almost everyone, and at this time, I hope we all are. I'm smiling.

Nailed to the ground...

A bum right now, not by choice...or maybe it is. Fucking hell I have to wait til next September to start my senior year and get my degree. I'm not doing anything right now, except being me and all that comes with me. Ever since I got back from my short vacation, I was ready and excited to being back home. Days went by, I got to catch up with my friends, have some good conversations and just had a nice time being with friends. I was going to look for a job, but since it turns out that my sister wants to take me to where she's living, I decided not to look for a job because it would be at an awkward time. So hopefully i get my ticket by the end of this month to visit my sister. In the month of December I'll be going back to the Philippines to celebrate Christmas and new year. And "they" said I might have a chance to visit my brother in Canada in the month of January. So I'm thinking I'll be back in Jakarta around February. Sounds good for the moment, but let's see how it pans out.
Last night I was hanging out with my friends, just chilling at a friends dorm after watching a movie at the mall. I wanted to stay a little longer, but turns out, my family was already looking for me. And I didn't get to reply/call back their buzzes thanks to my very loud and strong vibrating phone.
Next day, my mom got home from doing whatever she does in the morning, I look at her, and she goes, "WHAT? YOU! WHAT TIME DID YOU GET HOME?!" I explained myself calmly because I had nothing to hide from what I was doing last night. She's pissed off because apparently I did not tell her where I was going, indeed I did, thus making me confused on why she has to get built up on asking me questions. Then she goes, "well you have to let your dad know where you are going, not just me." So...ummm...it seems like my dad and mom don't talk about me. Why the hell do I have to go through both of you? Aren't you married? Isn't letting one of you know good enough? Anyway, I let my mom know my plans tomorrow, immediately she says I have to let my dad know. I know that, I was just letting you know first because you're right here already. Before my mom left off to go and do whatever busy errands she has, I ask for some cash. I gave her my reason why I need cash, because she asked. She gave me a bill and says that it will do till next week. I protest at how much I'm given, some fucking joke? That's not going to last till next week. That amount only lasts for an hour. So she added a few more, and I'm just like fuck it, I'll take it. And then the never ending complains come running in from her mouth. "You've got to save on money. You're always going out and spending money. Why don't you try and make us (mom and dad) happy?" The last sentence was delivered in a shrinking voice. But I heard that, isn't that the sweetest thing coming from a mother?! I just replied, "So I don't make you happy...ok."
It sucks. It really sucks hearing those words. I've been doing so well in my studies, and this is what I get. I'm not fucking around and causing trouble, and in their minds they think I am. All I'm doing is just having a good time with my friends. And the good time I'm having is just pure clean fun, nothing which would get me or my family in trouble or panic. My mom insists on associating money with friends. Fucking hell, you don't put a price tag on you're friends. The money you have does not represent the friends you have. Friends are not bought. My mom and dad also hates the fact that I come home late. Again, there is nothing wrong with what I do when I'm out. For christs sake I'm 21 years old, yet they look at me as some young teenager just realizing what's out there in the world. I just hate that you don't let me be me, I hate how the money you give me is covered in complaints, I hate how I can't be who I really am. Shit, if I could, I'd be living on my own and not give a damn on what you say. Why can't I have my space? Why can't you understand that I am responsible? I really thought I was doing alright for you, but nothing I do is ever enough for you to be happy. You don't love me for who I am, you love me just because I am your son. So you probably don't know who Chino is. All you know is the guy trapped in your house. I'm so tired of trying to please you, I'm so tired of hearing how you want me to be your child. Don't you get tired of repeating yourself? If only you would just let me be, I'd probably...I know I would be much happier.
Cheers to that!